Saturday, April 16, 2005

The Good

Believe it or not, there are actually some good things that have come out of being Hiv+. Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. It’s a horrible disease, the medications are often times worse than going without them at all, and getting sick isn’t fun for anyone.
The good: I have a wonderful doctor, who as I said before listens to me. I don’t mean just about medical stuff either. We have spoken about my personal life, my husband, my job and sometimes even current events. He actually takes the time to get to know his patients, and considering how many he has I find this amazing. He is not only the medical director of the Montgomery Aids Outreach program, but he also is a doctor at Jackson Hospital. To say this man has his hands full would be putting things lightly. I have often times heard some of the volunteers say that he’s a hard man to work with because he likes things done a certain way, however they show him the utmost respect.
I’m also very thankful to MAO and all of the people who are working so hard everyday to help people living with HIV cope. This isn’t all they do, however. As I have mentioned before, I only work part time. I have no health insurance and had it not be for the MAO program; quite frankly I probably wouldn’t have any medical care at all. I can’t afford the medicines or the doctor visits but MAO takes care of this for me and has been for all of the last 11 years of my life. I have watched the program go from a rather small outreach program; witch today has expanded and hired full time employees that it needs. Please take a moment to go to the MAO website. It hasn’t been updated in a little while, but there is important information there that will explain some things about Hiv that possibly you didn’t know. MAO is run on donations and grants, so if you are someone who would like to donate, it would be greatly appreciated to all of us that it will help.
The good: My husband, family and friends have been so supportive that words can not fully express.
The good: I am stronger now than I thought I could have ever been. I have had to deal with a lot of things over the years, but I truly believe had I not made up my mind from the very beginning that I wasn’t going to allow this disease get the better of me, I wouldn’t be here today. I try to keep a positive outlook on things and although at times it’s hard to not want to give up, I keep fighting.
The good: My faith in God is unwavering. While I may not fully understand the reasoning behind why this has happened to me, I realize that everything happens for a reason. As the saying goes, “What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.”

Life In the Way

As most of you can tell I haven’t posted for a couple of days. Not because I didn’t want too, more or less because of lack of time. Wednesday, after posting on my other blog I was just too tired to do anymore writing, and Thursday was a rather busy day for me. Again exhausted. Unfortunately this has been a constant for me. I get tired rather easily and this past week work wise has in itself been exhausting. I normally try to take afternoon naps but for whatever reason when I did I ended up sleeping far longer than I had intended, almost to the point where I should have just stayed in bed and slept the whole night. I have a problem this time of year, weather it’s due to the time change, or just because it’s spring, I’m not sure, but I sure do get tired and it’s rather annoying sometimes because this time of year in Alabama is gorgeous. I hate to waste the time I can spend outside enjoying the weather, sleeping it away. A couple of months down the road I’ll be sweating my rear end off (can’t afford to run the a/c very often) praying for spring to come back. If you never been to Alabama, about the only time of year when the humidity doesn’t knock you off your butt is in the spring and winter months. (We don’t really have a fall, just goes from hot to cold overnight. Lol.) The winters, while generally mild do tend to get a bit cold, but the spring…it’s awesome. No humidity, perfect 80 degree days, 40 or 50 degree nights. Best thing ever, that is in between dodging the rain pellets, witch we have had our fair share of this year.
Oh yes, I know, I am getting side tracked again. I realize I have just started this blog, but I’ll probably try to just post every other day rather than every day, depending on how I am feeling. Hopefully I will get over this phase of being tired to exhaustion soon. Peace out.

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